lots of God on a Sunday

Sitting here enjoying a pretty tops start to a Monday. I’m feeling amazingly awake, and have just enjoyed my first coffee since Thursday afternoon. It tasted awesome. 

What a weekend that was. A tops weekend indeed. It was weird at times… weird inside my head anyway. Had myself some little arguments about various things, but it was good to talk them out during the weekend with the people involved… and I slept really well last night being sure of so many things, and feeling incredibly content.

Yesterday was a long one - I was up and down to church to sing in the morning service. I must admit that I was not at all keen and felt quite lethargic. Even as the service got going, I just wasn’t enjoying being there and thinking about everything else that the day held that I could do once church was over (quite childish really). But even though I thought I wasn’t listening, I remembered things about the sermon later on during the day… and it was quite cool really.

After a good catch up and chat while battling monster exhaust fans and evacuation alarms at Seven Hills with b, I headed round to just hang out with Debbie for the afternoon. It was fun times teaching her new things about evil MS Word, doing maths worksheets for her, and then just sitting on the couch watching cricket and V8s while I napped slightly :)

But then it was off to Thornleigh Bapts. I was quite nervous; all these people that I had heard about, but never met; all these people who’d heard a lot about me, and were keen to meet me. No pressure. But it was a tops night. Aside from the clowns sitting in the row behind me, everyone was very welcoming and it made for a great night. Even the clowns behind me were welcoming too I guess. :) The best bit was meeting with God though… the sermon was fantastic, and I was reminded right at the end that I need to be humble in how I act; not attention seeking, or wanting to look good, or wanting to be noticed. It’s something I battle with a lot (mainly cos it’s just who I am), but I slip into complacency sometimes and forget, and let myself run away with being attention seeking and approval seeking.

Sometimes, it’s not all about me ;)

The last song they sang in the service was the best though. I’ve always enjoyed it, and started bopping away to it just singing the words kinda meaninglessly. And then I read them and really sang them, and was just blown away by how relavent they were to me, right now, 54 days into 2008…

And now that You’re near everything is different,
Everything’s so different!
And I know I’m not the same, my life You’ve changed.
And I wanna be with You… I wanna be with You.

Hold me in Your arms and never let me go;
I wanna spend eternity with You.
[now that you're near - hillsong]