It’s Wednesday morning, and yet it feels like it should be Friday. It’s been a very intense two days.
Monday was always going to be tough coming back to work after the few days off last week – I knew a lot was going on around the place and that there’d be a fair bit waiting for me. I spent a good 4 hours with a project manager at the end of the day trying to sift through a network rollout that was beginning to go a bit pear-shaped.
And it was at the end of that meeting that everything turned bad – one site of this 5 site network wasn’t able to get DSL to it at all. And that site just happened to be the head office. Without connectivity there, the whole network was pointless. Essentially, it was all my fault – I’d ordered the feasibility test, but completely overlooked the bit where it said “not available at this address”. Big oops.
So after having a pretty horrid Monday evening wondering what the next day would hold, and what the implications would be, and worst of all, breaking the news to the customer… yesterday turned out to not be so bad. There is an alternate technology I can use (which runs on fibre)… but the downside is that it costs more. Because the customer has already signed the contract, I’ve had to put some big work into getting some heavy pricing discounts to hopefully rectify my huge stuff up.
I’m not out of the woods yet – I haven’t broken any of this to my customer yet. And I’m still waiting to see if I get my pricing discounts approved. And then there’s the whole bit about changing orders in the system and sending grumpy techs back out to the site to do completely different work now.
The intensity of work in the last couple of months has just been huge… something I don’t think I’ve experienced in my job for quite a few years. Hopefully it’ll smooth out a bit as this new fin year settles in.
What was cool though, was heading to work, feeling very unsettled and anxious about what was awaiting me, and have Desert Song running through my head constantly – and I hadn’t even listened to it recently or anything. It was just one of those very clear God moments (not that God isn’t doing little things like that all the time, but this was just one moment that I noticed quite clearly). It was pretty comforting.
This is my prayer in the desert,
When all that’s within me feels dry.
This is my prayer in my hunger and need,
My God is the God who provides.
This is my prayer in the harvest,
When favor and providence flow.
I know I’m filled to be emptied again,
The seed I’ve received I will sow.
And I will bring praise, I will bring praise!
No weapon formed against me shall remain.
I will rejoice, I will declare,
God is my victory and He is here.
All of my life, in every season,
You are still God.
I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship.
Such brilliant lyrics. It’s so important to bring praise to God even when things are crap in our lives, and not fall into the habit of saying how awesome He is only when we’re having a great time. And that last bit: All of my life, I have a reason to worship – heck yes I do! No matter what’s going on, I have a reason to worship, cos God loves me and has saved me. And no matter what crap comes my way in life, that will never change, and He will always be there.